Awkward Shoe

It seems that every season and every lesson that I walk through, my mind automatically searches for the best way to make sense of it. I feel the need to somehow grasp a mental picture of what is going on. When I can see it, then I can get through it. Most of the time, it is intentional...sought out. Today, it just happened. For some time life, although completely wonderful and blessed, has also been...uncomfortable. Like a big messy painting, what I go through has value and worth, but can be difficult to see past the mess to see the beauty of the whole picture. It is confusing, it is frustrating...it is, tent making when you want to be preaching...(for another day perhaps). God gave me a beautiful, silly and completely wonderful revelation about where I am. He knows my heart, oh so well. Here is the conclusion: My life is like a kid that is outgrowing her shoes. There is always an awkward stage where a little kid's feet are getting too big for their shoes. It starts to get uncomfortable, tight, maybe even a little painful. All the little girl wants is a new pair of shoes. BUT this little girl doesn't have money for shoes, she has to wait for her Daddy to buy them. Her Daddy know her well, and He knows what is best for her. He knows that if he buys her new shoes too soon, she will not be ready for them. Her feet will not fit and the shoes will give her blisters because she is not ready to walk in them yet. She must wait for His judgement on when she is ready for the new shoes, she must live through the uncomfortable stage right now and when she is ready Her Daddy will supply the right shoes. I so badly want new shoes...I mean, the next season in my life. I feel that I am out growing the current...restless, ready for more, ready for bigger, better, deeper. It is uncomfortable. But My Daddy keeps reminding me that He knows better. He is still growing me to be ready for the next season. I don't want to rush out and take control, that's when I get hurt. So for now, I am waiting on my new shoes. :) I'm sure that they will be just lovely and perfect for me. After all, Daddy knows best.